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People care a fuck if u live or die. everyone's selfish when it comes personal, so fuck ur superficial 'good guy' social server...most kno its for ur own welfare dawg. so lets play real!

makes me laugh if someone refers to anotha as a good person. everybody's a fuck-up in one way or the other. u mus be thinkin that im on some suicide trip. well, believe it or not, i aint...ba ima take a few ppl's trip from now. all those who took mine...DEAR CRAP...like i alwayz said...im comin...and im comna get on ur nerves....ma words will. fuck y'all crap....fuck y'all.

 

REST WITH ME

life's a waste of time
livin saints love and lie
been with women
so near
embraced me
and they leave

life's a corner
empty holes
gettin longer
shot ma leg
chillin here
with ma peg
man! rest with me
therez no heaven for we

bad go ugly
jail breaks...breakin free
no one to catch thee
im sick of loot and me
lisen niggaz
trust no brothers
they dig
ur grave with ur trust
givin to u, not even lust
man! rest with me
therez no heaven for we

death is a dirty pill
prostitutes gettin real
everyone's hidin it
come y'all
be bad or dont be
man! rest with me
therez no heaven for we

had this gal
ma soul ma world
ask me what she gave
nothin much
lotsa tears
and much hope to say
hey, she's still there
livin here
90k
from chicago
i will one day go
a promise that she gave
man! rest with me
therez no heaven for we

sometimes i feel like being sad
pain's so much
its hurt tryin best to make me bad
had gun
to an innocent's head
lisened to noone
3shots and he dropped dead
the blood stains
stinkin on ma hands
now cant find
where the f*** do i go to pray?
tell me LORD
u ignore'n me
or not at all
man! rest with me
therez no heaven for we
stapp's a theory
not a life...neva a history
take me wife
in
ur arms
phew! whata dream.

© stapp
02 Jun 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

U and I

i didnt know u
until u made ma day
that one beautiful say
on our wedding day

i will love u
un-paint me
this naked skin
its love within
that no one else can see
hold me
our lil happy family
let each of us
know that it aint the lust
that bonds US
come and take me
with no arms
wrap u in mine
and ure warm
life's no song
a few problems r long
the tears
we'll taste as it comes along
When a thunder strikes here
i shy away behind ur ear
i hug u not jus in fear
but the shade i get from ma near
u run ur fingers down ma face
and the kiss i give on its tips
jus before it leave the place

now im sittin here
writtin these words for u
to ma eyes bring the tear
GOD, what if i didnt marry u

sorry, cant write more
our lil angel r callin now
hey, stop it...let me go
jus close ur eyes
nd im bac at ur door.

© stapp
05 Jun 2003

6BULLETS

righ now in ma head
a thot came and said
ima be shot
6bullets
and one in ma throat
im gettin scared
15yrs
of fetish glare
ma poetry aint jus a symphony
its an expression of life...lotsa irony

(a fanatic amoung the fans, shoots 6bullets,one in the throat.
stapp's assasinated)

well not yet
on the green mile
waitin for his bed time
no feelins reach ma brain
all this bullet bleed has no pain
cant speak
somethin's stuck
im gettin weak
ppl flee
cover emselves where i kneel
kneelin i am...not long
here i go
im fallin down

i lay here
no one near
this's how we end
dont tell me
therez alwayz friend
eyez r shuttin now
heart's slowin down
flashes of ma past
run across ma eyez
wonder if i'll be here
to see its last

i see ma gal...ma folks
a best pal that makes me laugh
lotsa regrets
a few strings still attached...
OHHH! herez ma wife
front of eyez
she cries
wonder why
ouch, that pains
arent these ma blood stains
"dont leave love..., havent lived enough with u."
she says
ba what can i do?
im helpless at this stage
GOD, this world's a sick place
ppl kill u so they take ur place
ba a few good ppl bring tears to ma face

glad that im leavin
sad, im alone
gona have to wait for y'all

aite, heart beat's done
breathin was fun
thanc u everyone
tears r streamin down
dont hold me bac
if ima stay
i'll be jacked.

© stapp
06 Jun 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Embrace with mE

i got the words
stinkin inside ma head
what doesnt hurt?
tell me, i'll show u how its to be said
ma niggaz, embrace with me

u send an angel by ma side
rescue life
6miles
away from suicide
come down here
look at me
tears die clensin me
filthy shit
im in it
ppl yell, get a grip
i dont stink
coz in ma head
im rich
rich with words
tho it hurts
embrace with me

u left stapp all alone
after all uve known
now ure gone
im writtin slow
tears fall
and ma lyrics keep goin on
ma niggaz, embrace with me
set maself free
i aint afraid, will foreva kneel
bringin ma hands together
trust in GOD
lock me in
if to love
is a sin

i play no JESUS CHRIST
have sinned
many a times
4yrs from now
in the mornin when u wake-up
dark times when u turn the lites out
ima be at ur face
front or back
thru t.v and satellite
ima fly
with wings so new
ima glide high
ma GOD build em
with ma broken heart
a broken love
that u left to rott

remember Reah
whoz away far from me
GOD, i gota complain to fill
im sittin here
prayin everyday
for her to come bac to me
u dont even seem to hear
r u busy?
later shall i call
or hit me when ure free

but LORD
got memories
stinkin in ma head
its gettin real
everyday...every minute
see in gettin weak
growin old
i even gota gray hair that i sold
dono when ure gona embrace with me
when Reah's gona be with me
ima hold her and i'll neva leave

hey! this's jus ma dream
im livin with this hope
know Reah will neva come home
and ima stay here all alone
but ima die
with the memories she left with me
so come and embrace with me.

© stapp
18 Jun 2003

 

 

 

JaiL

im passin dayz here
for like for no one
but wha the hec
...life goes on

im fallin
body filled with blood
now payin
for fear made me run
he hits me
later that day
me shoot him

police is chase'n me
i cant get free
goin 90
its frightening
i shoot the bugga
who screwed ma sis
media makes me the fucka
and he's filled with the kiss
6mins before
i couldnt even load a pistol
thinkin wha its for
shot the head of that asshole

dont care u mistake me
thatz ma sis...her blood
sinkin on her body
tell me wha was i do
arrest the freak
get him to a government geek
and he speaks
plzz
i aint guilty
and his money psycied lawyers
get him free
here i am charged with homocide
her boy friend tell the geek
i was to suicide
after the scene
could jus laugh...
and say
"fuck y'all, put me to jail"

im out to free air
for the las time im there
all mic's on me
"fuck u everybody!"
ma sis's gone
y'all meant so much to me
dont even try to bail
got niggaz here
shootin their own brotherz
desires wasted
temptations tasted
how the fuc r they still listed
when they lic arses
get spoilt by women
sex...its filty pleasure
aint to be forgiven
i aint mad
im crackin up
with word im writtin coz its sad
its hurts man
picture this
behind bars
in the middle of four walls
jailers homosex u
they bust bones
when u tell truth
u miss the sun's glare
the only shine
is the warden's torch-lite's stare
yea,we get poridge everymornin
and the famous rat's P on it
jail
the place for fails
no one comes to see u
ur hood forgets the truth
had so much in heart
wanted to be a poet
make it big
but ppl made me loose ma mind
they tore apart
ma dream
ma life
sittin here
cryin all nite
spent 14yrs
under dark lite
ma house's long sold
therez a church
but no GOD
i search
these ideas
build nothin but fears
i run out
break ma knees
lookin up
screamin at thee
world's a black hole
got nothin left
and ma jaw's cold
it froze
its why i write
ive everythin to fight.
© stapp`
24 Jun 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Between love and what it is to Hurt

yea im standin down
shiverin cold
dono where im gona go

few places in ma brain
the pictures
the fatal membrane
keeps ringin again
ma baby's face
i cant even think of another's place

what am i gona do
got a wife here
livin with me...good
so damn true
ba herez ma lady
a promise that she gave me
a childhood buddy
ma sweetheart...ma enemy
ma enemy is me
cant even breathe
everythin i see
GOD she came out jus for me
how i can leave
her
or ma life-partner

im in a fix now
got nowhere to go jump down
stop makin me cry love
lets see wha we can do to solve

"aite, picture this
not even a single kiss
for 21yrs
havent said a word
that really did hurt
aint playin no JESUS
i make mistakes
i lie
but not for others to break
what u give is what u take
dont even drop a tear
when u pay
its all got from what u said..."
aite love stop the bray
now can i say?

look at the person
besides me
has she got tears in her eye
that can u see?
get real
this's the person who trusts me
woed to spend the life-time with me
thru tears thru fears
beside every year
ma head's crackin now
all the solution i had is leakin out
im shoutin loud
cant u hear
love, tell me
i have tu souls nex to thee
which shall i take or be with

"but look stapp
ur gal's out, she aint a thrash
all the way from chicago
and u think to say NO
go chuck a throw
stop thinkin now
i say u go
go for love
not me, her
ur wife is a duty
that she did
if twerent for u
she'd be with another fool
man! get a grip!!!"
aite, im in the pit
GOD,wha am i to do
could u plz shoot a bullet thru

"SON, it aint in ma reach
given u all that i see
find a church
try n search
its in u...ur words"

minutes r in ma hand
but i aint fine
take that gun
shoot me in the knee
wana runaway from here
im writtin more words
jus fillin the gap
between love and what it is to hurt
shall i stop the yap

GOD says its with me
love temps me more to ma near
who am i near to
i dono, got no proof
if can help me
stop by to say how u feel.

© stapp
26 Jun 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

hommie from jr.high

as we squeezed thru the empty hole
to our bac school in a row
tension's on the
mount
sistaz
on the prowl
quite y'all
how many more?

makes me laugh
thotz of our past
ran thru hoods
borrowed cash
OH! we had a blast

its time to worry
nobody cry
death aint in a hurry
we're too short for life

ma hommie from jr.high school
hit his cemetary
too soon
death we neva thot to bury

i got ur name tatooed on ma arm
hold it everyday
i feel so warm
without me knowin
tears fall
therez no controlling
no wondering why
lost ma hommie
from ma jr. high

hey, GOD...this's one to u
why do take good ones too soon
the rest live and enjoy our fruit
i aint mad at u
but sometimes i lose control too
dont think u think a lot
before callin on ppl
jus chec their past
ma hommie
had sister
15yrs ago
she left us
coz of cancer
the LORD blessed his folks
with tu kids
tho they've left
is hurtful memories
why didnt u leave
their only one dyin seed

im takin deep breath
for a mother paralysised till her death
im dyin inside
imagine a father cryin fire
u gave life
ba wha can he do
when its not worth while
nomore does he love U
gave him the money
the facility
whaz point
he cries all day
jus cant sleep at nite
all alone inside

this's ma hommie
from jr.high
dont u cry
or sympathize
i lost him foreva
His family still alive
so yrs do fade
memories live hell
there aint no use to fly
when ure wings r covered with lies

im in a corner
empty rooms funny smile
me and ma hand
ma hommie
ur picture that ive had
im waitin for u
from jr. high
plzz dont hide
game's over
come on out
mama'z alone
lets go home

ma brother
rest in peace
have a lot of work here
ba at the end of these
i can feel
ur tears
on ma cheeks
every rain drop's tellin me
u lookin at me
with each star
as the price
u paid for ur every sin
so far that u can even reach me

cant get words more
this heart's hurt for sure
this's the hell
but aint the end
ma friend
as of now
i stand alone
with thotz we've spent.


peace!

© stapp
27 Jun 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Streets we've been today

i keep thinkin now
runnin down
the streets we've been today
jus 2dayz uve been
missin u since
coz ure away

everythin here
seems to be clear
ba ma tears, still fall
wonderin why
wipin ma eyez
kno im missin u, ur call

now that ure bac
this mornin sky
dont shine
...so what...so why?
ure holdin me...ma smile

When everyone's gone
Cant see no one
u'll see me there
hold u tight
coz i care
and will alwayz share ma life
if there were the times
i hurt ur smile
i apologize
coz ur love is mine

I hold ur hand
when im scared
ma strength
i'll take ur pain
give it name
that feel nice
and u could take

i dono what is far to say
for u i have in every pray
we'll make a life
commited and sacrifice
to our family
the ones who love us so dearly

take me out
YES I WILL
am i gona shout
NOT UNTIL...
we kno where we're goin
music is not singing
lets make it real
the power we then will feel

dont leave me now
i kno u have too much to do
trust is all bout love
if im cryin tears
not that i wan u to sympathize ma fears
believe me
dont trust me
coz i do
foreva till i live
ma lavigne
i love u
will alwayz wan u to win
here, there... everywhere.


© stapp
08 Jul 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(   ) - left for u to fill

makin her way down from stars
GOD sends gifts
but not so fast
i had a laugh
lookin at her pretty face
her feathers
that glowin grace
thru the clouds
Can i embrace u
wana believe u
so in need...plzz be true
she pushes me to fall
into ur arms
ure fast asleep
with open arms
thanc U GOD
why are u being so kind
"its for ur tears
ur broken heart
now go, stop wastin years."
i wakeup in the morning
feel the warmth
her arms around
tears roll
coz of ma memory
everythin in this song
dont belong
u mean more than wha these
could ever speak
restin ma face
on her heart
her breath takin ma place
we cant be apart
opens her eyez...ma wonder
dont let go
we'll lay till the end of the show
have hurt a few
paid its price
to make me new
u wouldnt believe
how i got here
value of seeing
ive now realized thru ma years
can i look in ur eye
say...???
how much do u love me???
- this much....
- how much...
- this much...
- how much......

© stapp
15 Jul 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Stapp Goess Onn

I thot u'll be more than a friend
i mean wha if, ure there till the end
i dreamed ...and dreamed
but now
i stand here as ever leaned
alone
love has neva lived here
does it too have a heart
why was i dreamin
when i knew she was tarin me apart

was i a fool
to take her to ma heart
dont u think its cruel
if only i understood u
im sorry
but im too simple for u
i may not have that charm
to build the things u want

aite, wipe these cheeks dry
its time i threw
the thot that i have u
and now im cryin...dono why
do i still have the strength to make u fly

dont u plz come bac
not that i dont wan u in ma life
but i've lost ma belief
and it can neva get on track

i lost u
u kno it betta than me
u have flew
whenever i call on the fone to speak
was i a fool
i dono....
but stapp still goes on
life is good
jus that we make it blue
but both wayz
i cant stop lovin u.

© stapp
11 Aug 2003

Come to mE

am i this weak
u got someone morrow
i kno wha u speak
life good ba sorrow
lingers so near

am i to stop cryin
tell ma tears to stop comin
is it gona make me a man
coz at the end of the day
no one will understand

come to me
where eva ure runnin
show me wha to feel
coz we r all dyin
faster plzz
take ur time swimmin
jus make sure...ure comin
need u before dyin

and when ure alone to follow
may feel great n go

am i that wise
to show whatz not righ

i may have nothin to lose
nothin to keep as proof
for a friendship thats at loose
whoz to kno
believe u
long as i
have the life
to breathe for more
u kno i love u

come to me
like therez no morrow
jus stay here
love dont even bother.

© stapp
31 Aug 2003

A Letter to GOD

So i lost a lot
who care for what
life is all but long
when u wana die

im regretin
cant stop blaming
when he was here
i didnt give ma all
look at me now
a dead gal in love

i cant write this
every word is ma painful kiss
wonderin why
why does GOD have to take him
HIM to die??
now dont tell me
only the good die young
i hate to see
when the rest have the fun

if i am to continue
i'd neva end
whaz the point, aint nothin new
dead is ma good friend
dead is a daughter
daughter of a wonderful father
whoz not here
oh tear!
plzz dont stop
i wana let the GODS know
HE was all i got
they took him away
alone for me stay

i aint angry
still gona pray
till i bleed ma knee
dont care what u think
GOD im hurt
it pains GOD
it pains so deep
im cryin now
r u happy to see me
come here and look how
ure love is livin

aint gona suicide
i will neva die
i wan u to see me
how u make me survive

with all ma heart
hope u dont tare neone else's heart

LOVE YA! will alwayz
and plzz dont bring me better dayz.

© stapp
01 Sept 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Nile

To ma unborn baby
tho i cant see
some say
they get a picture o thee
in their lover's eye
i had one
but many years ago
she had to die

funny tears now
rollin by
i cant even hide
ma emos r this high
this weak
i remember me
cryin in the arms of ma mommy
helpless i
couldnt even speak

nile
ma future butterfly
if i could tell u why
i'd break down and cry
then u wouldnt have neone to look upto
whatz ma baby gona do
if this daddy's got nothin to prove
ur mommy to be
was to be a wonderful lady
she is
i still cry
but with no sheddin tear in ma eye
she's gone now
married to another
who she has no love
newayz,
i got u
hell to ignorant dayz
i love u
most times at nite
huggin ma pillow
sayin, isnt this ma wife
but i wake to know
no! this's ma nile
love u ma love
dont u dare leave me
coz i'll have no one
waitin for ur arrival

forever ur crazy
who else can this be
STAPP, UR DADDY.

© stapp
01 Sept 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ask yourself?

its easy to fool me once
make it real
and fool me twice
then with a smile
make it happen thrice
who u really foolin here
maybe GOD
maybe me
ba one day, u get down to ur knee
now ask urself

life can not co-exist with me
wha has happened
cant be rewritten
pain i wen thru
r the tears i shed for u
i neva regret em
but now
i feel like killin me
ma pain was nothin to feel
nobody's need
i broke down
for wha...for who
ma fuckin shoe
to get drenched
in the rain that i spent

im tellin u man
righ now, closin ma eyez
tryin to understand
tho i realize
these tears that i cant lie
its burnin inside
friggin hard to
the hardest to get thru
wha u give u get bac
tryin not to
look too sad
ba i cant
cant now
cant foreva

do u think tears come outta fear??
man therez nothin like it...so real
im jus tryin to be
a small good memory
to the ppl who love me
i dont hate neone
but i sure am uncomfortable
life is like this story
and it all gets into me

I thot u'll be more than a friend
i mean wha if, ure there till the end
i dreamed ...and dreamed
but now
i stand here as ever leaned
alone

love has neva lived here
does it too have heart
why was i dreamin
when i knew she was tarin me apart

whateva happened to human feels
is the only thing i trusted was tears
ba u made realize
that even tears can lie

u proved me wrong
i trust no reality
memories now frighten me
life will leave
ba love, neva will

think u can pull me down
well, try ur hand now
fear is ur only love
dont believe me?
ask urself.

© stapp
02 Sept 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

inside

life is longer
when u have none by ur side
fate's a stranger
that makes u sick of life

what ive got here
is a couple of bucks
and lil a love inside
gime ur hand
ive nothin to hide

its so hard to
cry ur tears when ure true
love will, neva lie

now ive come here
this 2nd life
with not much fear
kno wha life means
dyin aint much fun as it leaves

feelin deserted
ur heart's pleedin u
one more, and he'll be dead
world's here to break u
realize and u'll get thru

i have tears now
dont help me dry em out
not that im stronger
im same me but now a believer

i will fight for u
not thinkin if u'll do too
coz wha i do
is not for me to prove

how can i divide
ma expressions r feelins inside
maybe, some r too uncomfortable
can u? love,
teach me how to part a full

now im dyin
therez no more words left in mind
all is spoken
herez this naked man
who has survived
stapp!
would u plz smile??

© stapp
09 Sept 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i Walk

where were u
when ma wings were broken
instead of rain
fell
knives ive stolen
some fell to ma heart
the rest to the other parts


where were u
while i was happy & joyful
with no one to share to
jus things u said
love u gave
keeps me alive
till this day
when away with urself
with some place else
dyin to believe
i've gone

i'll stand in that street
till u come bac to arms of these

i'll love and have loved
been betrayed
ba still havent learned
while distance may part
from this heart
goes ur love
goes everything

tho the seasons cried
over heard the angels talk
why i've survived
for this lonely walk
is it to fall
jus to die
or injury
thru-out ur life

im happy now
those shadow clouds
dont haunt me around
see the flowers with colors
brings the smiles
i have all the lovers
so what is life...
for u

i walk to u
our fate will stand and look
grin its teeth
while we're at the edge of our peak

then we fall so deep
wing come to us that we've neva seen
like i over-heard the angels talk
i cant believe this
or is it luck
that wit u i walk.

© Stapp
23 Sept 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Love to propose

I will meet u
in a better place
where the lite clense ur face
for love to propose

lemme lil close
GOD will bless me
lend me ur hand
for a lil while
at least i'll cry
many are times i
called to hear ur voice
have u ever thot of pain
or what it feels like

can u plz lie
coz with truth, i cant even die
ba i mus let u kno
its not the amount of things u gave me



feels like
real close
i dont want to
wha is kisses
if u werent born
when life is all misses
why owe
when u fill ma soul

been in pain
been in a lot of pain
ba a touch by ur skin
makes me feel happy again

touch me
hold plzzz
dont let go
coz ma life wont kno

throw ur arms around me
i'll hold u dear
i'll need u
when no one does
hurt me, this fool
like the world calls
i'll take u as u come.

© stapp
29 Sept 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dayz

faraway
long along that shiny beech
i was cryin
cryin for ma toy that was stolen
then u came runnin
not for fightin that toy
thatz been broken
but to wipe ma tears
whisper to shores
to take away ma fears

then u held me in arms
i cried for more
now breathin with u is a charm
i was in love for sure

dayz went by
eraser was her time
she forgot ma face
then never remembered ma name

in the dayz
i climbed the rainbow to steal a star
the angels punished me
"now u'll be happy
but wont go far!!!"

i didnt care
ba i came here
with ur star
we danced so much...so long
ba didnt kno who we r
jus chasin birds and bees
stealin honey

now i stand here
tears jus waitin to come
its the 23rd year
and cant even open ma mouth

winds plz dry ma tears
along the same long beech
gime ma fears
gime everythin u took to cheat

i sit there and look up
that star's missin
angels appear laughin
why stappy??
i cant get it bac
ma rainbow plzz tell the stars
im sorry and im payin
ur price
i have had ittttttttttttttttttt!!!!

whaz the warmth, have i died
or jus choked to lie
with open eyez
i see the star
its thorwed high
angels, tho old, catch with a smile

is this real
or a dream
she hugs me
from behind with belief
a love story so very true
this's hope of life
else, who can i be married to u.

© stapp
30 Sept 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sorry for Survivin

wha does love mean to ur life y’all
ppl talk of pain coz they hate y’all

Why do we have to die so fast
when everyone else bad does last
why is it we love to lose
when u got nothin else to choose
ppl fell in love and say they've gained
everyday's kiss that they're payin

it all love, love love...love
man!BULLSHIT is betta now
i can live in
can at least feel me breathin
i keep this smile so artificial
touch it
and feel if...its real

dont sell ur soul
its ur husband's own
how can u lady
to anotha, sell ur body
u aint a whore
to give a randy sucka ur more
think bout it!!!
kno u'd rather be in the streets
and laugh bout it
go make money!!!
ur pleasure so filty
sad i feel for
ur hubby
wha if he gets here????
im tellin u man
this's all a true story


I feel the kid ova ma shoulder
Funny it may seem ba im gettin older
Lookin deep I think of ma fatha
Pains he went thru
All for ma good
Love, does he have u

God’s following his own direction
Wha would u care if not for love and affection
Man! Spite out ur dignity
See ur naked self in need
And can u ask urself
Whateva happened to ur human need
Understand when u don’t really think
Chuc ur job for while plzzz
Love and understandin aint human these dayz
Talk bout it …well ure hated newayz
If this’s how u generate
Then don’t blame anger for its hate
Take an example for human care
And this’s wha I once said

“There aint no fallen love that reminds me
Aint no following river by its scene
I look up, the breeze that sweeps me in
The breathe im taking in,
wishing it tells me. . .
Hey! its 3rd march on
ur screen!
I swam down the river
Seeming a very familiar figure
Knew I was searching ,
Like a beastly hooligan
Hitting me again and again
I don't know.
But somehow,
they brought me back to where I've been.
was here I fell in love,
here I gave my soul
To find my someone,
like I needed me the most
This will only make me free, if u would only make me feel
That u r not faraway from where I need.”
Now I ask maself….wherez she
Wherez the love she gave me
that I now need

Life aint a simple game
I heard ma bes bud’s dad
Hit a train
He wanted end his life
Tho the love for his wife
Twas his son’s shame
That he couldn’t take
So betta early hit the break
Pain that a fatha feels
When his son deals
With cocaine and weed
I bet u don’t feel
Coz ure still a kid
Young ba sufferin
scared ur virginity's long gone breakin
jus coz u lost control
wanted to see whaz ur role
these aint makin u big
think bout the names ur bring
to ur family
to the hood ure livin in
im sorry
u aint a mean thing man
coz smokin weed
or sex-appeal
aint bringin u no where near GOD to heal

All the pains that a fatha went
his tears that a motha felt
u cant even compare
to wha they've lent
is this love??
is this the how???
ppl live in this world
life aint a simple game
lovers still remain
love's still the same
ba its the ppl that change
i might wana get outta here
aite! so i tried suicide
ba not twice
ive learnt the value of life
so chuck ur eagle eyez
ma botha found a life
and so have i
the only difference
she's still with him
and mine's jus alive

selfishness again
made GOD go his own direction
HE threw his chair
the prayer
And invitation
so stop sendin ur worthless prayers
or question...
wherez has GOD left?
now HE wont lisen
so u'll have urself checked
greedy bout money makin
think of those who dont make it
those who cant even scarp a meal
those dont have the strength to heal
im talkin bout this world y'all
and if u think contact centers is a pain
workin 9hrs a day
its like peanuts to a prayer
how many r sent a day
how many r answered in a way
jus walk out
try n calculate
how many tears make a rain
all the rivers r jus as same
same ol tears
think of the good ppl all ur yrs
try n count one that stood till here
i love marshall
his words r neva pratial

lisen ppl this not wha i need
this's not even half of wha i feel
i jus couldnt stop
thinkin of truth...dyin
stapp aint neva gona stop tryin
go love...
go till u see no more to heal
coz ure the only one who stays here
sorry for survivin.

© Stapp
06 Oct 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Those Tearz (for tupac)

ima find this hard to say
hard to prove
harder even for ma soul let go u
u no meanin nothin to me
wasnt even ther nex to u
nex jus so i cud feel or see

wha am i doin rappin shit like this
when i havent even fired a gun
nor have i played a gangsters fun
im here
miles from where u sleep
how cud i
feel it when u weep
dont even kno how u came into me
ur lyrics ran all ova me
ppl thot i was wrong
goin bad lisenin to so called 'worthless' songs
wha do they kno bout ur poetry
all its ova here
r superficial lyrics for fucked beats

im done pac
im done this place
i wana change...
come to where uve been
go places wher u havent seen
let u fulfill dreams
thru me
allow me
bless me
i shed no those tears
that belief
that ure still here
after all these years
ba u live in
ma heart
these r ur open arms
if ever i reach the place
marshal rapin ma lyrics on stage
i'll kno who to respect
who to give all fame
that i will share
marshal ure the other person i care
respect ma white nigga
peace to all friends and foes
pac is alwayz here for more.

© stapp
08 Nov 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

TherE

On the edge of a wakin dream
afraid if u'll be happy there
don’t be scared
i'll be there

in ur whisper i feel ur fears
leavin home after all these yrs
jus think of GOD
and ur smile is there

dont be afraid
of true love
HE'll be watchin u from above
u kno i'll gima ma all
jus as i write
jus to see ma sista smile
so plzz dont cry
ur mama will be fine
coz i'll be there
jus think of me
im already there

across ur smile i see the sky
if not for u, i would lie
jus thanc ur stars, u can see
with u, i'll be there

follow ur heart
nothin's impossible
its how u deal with art
so use ur head
for life is urs
dont care wha otherz said
coz i'll be there
if u believe
that noone cares...
jus close ur eyez
and i'll be there

in the wind i take inside
i feel there is a need to cry
coz ur goin away
and thingz will neva be the same again
tho i'll be there...
im scared

so with these arms i pray
i give all ma words tonite
and i am tired
jus close ur eyez
i'll still be ther.

© stapp
15 Nov 2003

Cant Far Me From Near

Cant believe im this strong
cant believe i came so long
but i still cry
still cant forget ur smile
why did it happen here
fate, u cant far me from near

i kno deep inside a place
where u'd been proud
why cant u speak out
cant u speak aloud

im sufferin now
jus a bearded ol man
im tryin to find love
but GOD dont understand
remember that bird, we chased whole summa
when winter came, we cuddled eachotha

dont have more prayers
to send to a GOD
i got ma chair
and im age'n it out

ma family calls for supper
but i neva got up
sat righ there
neva to get up

so i reach GOD'S door
knockin till i was heard
is nebody there
im so damn hurt
life is for livin
why didnt U let me to do
livin in sadness with ppl i neva knew
tell me why
why did u do...??

neva sent u ma need
thinkin it would hurt thee
wishd i'd known U
that u needed to kno
ive completed ma life
wha have i
these r wishes in ma eye
why didnt i cry
ask for ur help
wha stopped me to tell

couldnt whisper gbye
go to work and i then cry
wha did u wan from me?
wha did u wan from me?

then the air got warm
surrounded me like a hug
whisperin words of hope
like the song of a thug

said i,
wana hold her hand before i come
take me down GOD, lisen to me now

a while after
thot twas HIS hands from behind
i held it and cried
then the voice of ma love
whispered in ma ear
wiped ma tear
I open ma eye...
"GOD i love you!!!"
and i died.

© Stapp
28 Nov 2003

 

 

 

 

 

Anger is too good to waste

aite, i lost ma sis
ma fault ma guilt
almost killed maself for that

few ppl came
made me a life
i laughed
played and enjoyed
without a fight
anger neva could get near me
so happy
i was
all he could do
is watch me

have i suffered enough
nobody knows
not even GOD
coz life has to go
good or bad
remain happy and a lot sad

everyday the air i taste
few inevitable pains
still climb in
into ma bed
those tears r too good to taste
where is a tear without anger
its why anger's too good to waste

Ima get this thing goin
reach for the stars
coz i aint goin
lend me an arm
and im holdin
jus dont leave
coz silly things i cry a sky
im too weak
its why

am i too sloppy for u
tell me now
coz later
i wont even have the strength for standin up
dont look down
life's alwayz a slope
we gota climb
we fall
all of us r a fallin crime
its the distance
that THEY CALL
dont live for GOD
ask what it is not
go get it
and tell him what he's lost

plz forgive me FATHER
i aint against u
but i do believe
good thingz dont come to those who wait
if they do
they aint of ne use to live

© stapp
05 Dec 2003

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Whoz the BO$$?

I cant see
ba i have dreams
maybe not a Martin Luther King
this is free
ma tongue cant read..i agree!!
ba ma mind is me
when i rap
words start to clap
im jus gettin feelins out
most bad...
and if u wana be heard?
then shout!

i had a few thots in ma head
yrs pass
and they still aint dead
coz
im the definition of
half man half us
ask urself
who the bo$$
everythin's after ours
STAPP! thatz whatz up
whoz to block

ima chec the hit list
free the innocent
ma words make belief
trust is wha they need...
... u know wha? - fuc this shit

i need no tv
no momless galz dance in front of me
herez reality
we gota bite
dont need to breath till eternity
im jus livin in this portion
stop abortion
they have the righ to live
if u did fuc
be brave enough to buy a rug
if u got cash blow
dont be like puffy to show
he's a kid to shoot
look at Pac
livin life after death
ma man's rollin shows
and thats for sure.

© Stapp
01 Jan 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Unfinished

many lives i thot a dream
all the riches surroundin free
its like every brick is tied on me
ba i kno i'll do ma best
so i'll live doin before i rest

Reminence all the past yrs
gota pistol to ma head
ba no fears
flashes of ma rents
ma brotha...ma sis
and a few lastin friends

wanted to grow big
which i did
made no difference
even as i got rich
ma emotions still sweeped shit
i have the cash blow
women wooed me for more
ba they didnt kno
money's filthy paradise
its like playin chess with a dice
wha do they kno bout pain
they think everythin's run under money?
Well, they'd betta start takin a blame


im here
jus to mark me in a page of history
not too long
ba drill words of "to who we belong"
im jus a simple man
with a lil power in ma hand
i cant rap...u kno that
and i hate the ones who didnt understand
now that i stand here
edge of a peak
with most of em still livin free
un-hurt
so before i ASK
these dirty words...
i wana shoot this head
without as much as it'll hurt

"GOD, wha have u done for me?"
unfinished! are ma deeds
gime life, anotha
cast away on a burnt bridge
i wont botha
ba not like this
no one aint cry like this
longin for ur KISS
shoot me in the head
why am i waitin like this
unfinished

(THEN SHOOTS HIMSELF IN THE HEAD)

- 5YRS PASS -

was i supposed to choke
cheated death
on the way to ma bed
wasnt ma plan
ba here i am
stronger to tell a tale
no digless guns think im for sale!
i need no 6'2
to hold a pistol
ask me bout value
and i'll sell u

think bout breath
its like walkin on a rope
which is a thread
game's between u and death
and no one else
life aint jus waitin to end
its the beginnin of a friend
love him first
everythin else would soon be at thrist
therez whole lota thingz we dont kno
Unfinished
thatz for sure.

© stapp
10 Jan 2004

 

 

 

52

These ideas wasted
tolerance has their limitations
its like whateva they say is true
me, a blac man
its nu

in a hood that allows all swearings
guns, dope n galz
makes a livin
its so scary
with all the fuckin around
ignorance is OUR LADY
aids marchin around

now im in school
coz of ma mama's soul
sold herself and this aint kool
i maybe practically nothin
ba in ma mind
i zest for somethin
for all the pain she went thru
she fucked 52
do u kno how it is to be goin thru
if u feel that u can relate
pimps and prostitutes
they can be great
they giva livin for wha U can take

every profession has its reason
its like askin if GOD'S in season
im tellin u man...
this world's for a mafucka
and they jus teach hate
and its with us foreva
wha bleeds can neva be fake

im hidin on corners
from practically nothin
till the day, mama came runnin
asked her wha did u do?
r u runnin short of sex pistols?
mama, im proud ure a prostitute
its with this money
im in this institute

"These guyz worship us
like stars studded in crystals
after sex sellin me thru yrs
the only man i feared
ur father
was the one in the room
the one i had to do
fate made him ma no:52."
...sayin this ma mama fell
now, from then
ive a 50 million record sell
heard from someone
ma dad too fell
i dont teach hate
i express it, for love to take
believe me
vision is fake
nething u think can break
its all ba reality
a propoganda of felony
reminds me
of a botha'z letta
that read
"ma sista ranaway
coz her daddy couldnt rape her." (city high; courtesy)
think of this head
all rotten is alwayz said
tie'n her lace
she was a gal of jus eight
its when she stopped goin to school
tryin to make a livin
from wha was then kool
carryin at 13
i was born later 9months from 14
who cares for me
magazines see only where ive been
truth is unseen...

© Stapp
05 Feb 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

Poets Fight The Pen

All the poets and their pens came alive
tonite they sit togetha to write
tell me wha it is to fight
when u cant get nothin to lie

here we are, lil heads
tryin words
of whaz not said
make believe reality
is far bloodier
than a bullet shot thru me
im now in jail
a raped victim coz of betrayal
and this jail i call hell
coz in one word
none can describe or tell

mmm...lets see
a single mother witha family
her childhood dream
was me!
gettin big and makin her happy
which i did
ive fulfilled for her
ba not for me
its too young too late for love
wha i did was bad
ba thatz ma hood
itz worse than sad
picture this
a sista runnin away
mother bleedin on her way
and me, hidin
while a few thugz chasin
and the rest
hittin mama with a sledge
think of anger
which i couldnt find
Where am i, at the edge?

in darkness i wake
feelin ma eyez burn
and its ache
remindin, wha the fuc did they take
blood streamin slow ova ma body
drippin to make sounds that trigger a heart-break
open burn eyez
mama's dead
and a lil further blood stream
ma sista's raped
wanted shout
couldnt!
wanted it loud
didnt!
moments later
was outta ma place
runnin all ova streets
hiddin ma face
a sudden spiky sound
drilled into ma ears
vibrates thru ma body
shakes ma fears
to ma head
ba too late too real
wha can be said
ma near are all dead

so ran,
ran outta ma place
outta ma hood
did everythin to scrounge a meal
i didnt beg
ba i did steal
heaped enough to buy a gun
hit the mafuckaz
who that day had fun
ma mama's bloody face
ma sista, ma lost grace
rollin the gun every nite
sippin Hennessey
thinkin everything ba righ
isnt it time to fight
or is it time to fight....

© stapp
04 Mar 2004

 

 

 

 

 

EVEN THE GOOD HAVE DIRT UNDER THEIR FINGA NAILS

it appears im underlined
marked for death
all the dirty job
makin up for ma sweat
ma stinkin wealth

whoz to kno
the money...the smile
under ma pillow
all from jobs
that im sure u don wana kno
wana cry at times
ba im too big
for cries
gime a hit
take me bac to ma hood
wher i was an innocent kid
ma mama used to tell me
be like this and how good u could be
when all i saw
even food stamps couldnt ease our misery
....and she wans me to believe?

so took to the streets
bought a .32
from ma good bud deeds
helped me to get in to
a thug nigga's team
in an instant
smart brians
small talks
led me to the lead
like even the good have dirt under their finga nails
repect is nomore love
ba from hate
so i shoot brotha niggaz on the front row
no more "think i'll die"
coz ma mama's food stampz chec
is wha the nex man called life
and when i die
niggaz dont cry
we're outlawz
fight to survive

think of all the women who sleep with me
when they become moms
they'll understand the meanin to virginity
why cant they hear their mamaz cry
each time they sleep with a guy
this time its me
a few yrs down the line
its anotha nigga who can rap
ba maybe not like me

i dont regret
ba im born
and im put to the test
whoz the best
is it me?
or a guy whoz sincere?
when i didnt have the doe
i had love
now i have the doe
ba not love
does GOD really still care of us
i dono...i dono...
where we goin...
dont ask me
ask
ur foe.

© Stapp
30 Mar 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wonda if tha LORD still cares of us

was it the hooker
that made me blind
or the liquor
that led me to a fucka...who am i?
in ma memories
i too had ma dreamz
and like u
wanted to be a star
so up in the sky
no matter who u r
tears will come when u cry

when i was young
was so eager to leave
stuck in between
two mountains
a side of me
was ma father!!
who loved beatin
when his friend kept rapin me
like i was a machine
age 8, i was a 19.
no one came to resuce me
no one cared a fuck i was white
coz even the blac did get to see school
when it wasnt righ
kept away from ma college kidz
coz ma mama was ma life
and she didnt like
too late
ma butt's now gota hole
newhere i go
they treat me like a whore

game twisted
short cut to be a star
like marlyn monroe
was found at a tea-shop
for silly buckz
i gave sex a visual effect
still searchin
beneath ma Continuous scares

truly ma booty pretty
that i kno
ba that aint enough
mama left dad
got pretty tough
ma fatha later
took his life
while she shot herself
leavin ma brotha and i for hunger

aite...
like GOD wanted, he too died
some shitty cancer in the throat
why couldnt i
everynite i thot
tear drops when i close ma eye
think u wana die
ma mama's food stamps
was wha the nex man called life
realize, coz i didnt
love, coz i did
ba no one did hear it
well i cant blame em
its ma tragedy
look at JESUS
did neone comfort him
hangin out with cheap men...cheat wives
alchol, triggerz danger
one mafucka
shoved a rod
and the nex thing i remember
was the gun-shot
i fuckin killed him

© Stapp
31 Mar 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

GHETTO BIRDS

was sometime at nite
i was age 40
and a couple of guyz
came at ma front door
and as i opened
a guy had a pistol
in his hand
the other didnt even understand
ba caught ma front hair
the nex thing i kno
mafuckaz rapin ma sista
im a retard
i couldnt even get the strength to
hit hard
these ghetto birds
think they can play
ba not when ma words
this retard's gona hit so hard
they're gona ask mama to come pay
now i'll play
u sit and watch GOD
thanc u...merciful
can only say i'll try
dont care a sin
coz have i


the heart plays a beat
and i keep rhymin
bout ma emenmy
im a nigga defined
born from hatred
inorder to draw a line
ma whole life
ive been dyin to survive
now so am i
do u kno wha it is
being a retard
ma anger and ma hate
life's too hard
too much love and its fake
therez so much u can take
u neva kno
when u loose ur composure
u can loose it all
be like an NFL football show
pack ur anger
and kno where ure lettin it go
survivin on ma wheelchair
40yrs to go
controlled ma hatred to anger
and im all ready to blow
ima fuc the show
i dont care who survives
i've lost it all
from rape to lies
and im alone
im fight the face
i gota gun
enough money...and its all in place
wont be caught in publicity
creatin much hype
and the nex u kno
they'll be break ma life

so i reach their hood
look em in the eye
dont think they remember me good
i take ma knife
written there
were words
of ghetto birds
"HERE I GO TO UR HEART."
i mean, can i kill em all
or rip em apart
the time it took to think
they in a blinK
were all near me...
i opened fire
let em lay down in bloody cold water
now i got caught in the publicity
and police...
nomore pleadin "not guilty"
...please
cuffs and a wheelchair
ma property in jail
satisfied,
takin ma las breath
now i dont care.

© stapp
05 Apr 2004

I WAS BORN WHEN MA MAMA WAS 62

Im 62 today
same place...same knee
bended before thee
sendin the same prayers
for 41 fuckin yrs
ba still no rayz

im runnin outta patience
if u kno wha i mean
i havent had a kid
ma own
ma need
and im too poor to buy one

for all the hope and faith uve given me
think im drainin out
thru ma misery
ive sined!!
and it still sinks in ma skin
stinkin in ma skin
was it the sleepin pills
that made me blind
or the smokin buds
that killed ma child
dono wha the fuc to do
im growin old
and its too late to suicide
after all wha u thot
u gave me life
its why i survive
im sick of the pain
ma mind is numb
it doesnt feel insane

lets see
u take ma place
and i take urs...

U left ur p'rents
jus to be with urs
cant show ur face
coz u ranaway
so years do pass
ba still no sign of a kid
wha have u did??
u did dope
didnt lisen
grew to grow weed
smoke em
made money
and u expect mercy?
so like every cloud
with the silver linin
u had urs
on
ur bittersweet weddin
U PASSED OUT!!!
simply coz u were ova doped
and twas so loud
how could u
break the flu
and have it all coped
ur ignorant
believe me
u have no fuckin respect for family
else why would they end their life
these were the thingz u told me
said, im not responsible
...it aint mine
everything's possible
coz ure divine

look at me now
ma skin's so dry
its gone to weak
not that i havent had the time
ba im dyin
i had it now
think i lisened to u
mend ma learnt way
much to much
ima go now...
lost is ma faith
jus anotha dead soul around

tell me father who am i
today, im 62
morrow i may die
so im leavin now
to adivce and life
g'bye
ma silly dream child
g'bye

6months down the lane
im due 1month
for ma...ma 2nd life
twas the very same year
i heard MOTHER MARY
had blood comin from her eyez

i feel happy
coz ma lil baby
ba wonda why MARY cried
the same year

© Stapp
07 Apr 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

To Hurt, From Love

thanc u
im so hurt now
no answer
im grabbin words out
to catch u

so i got ol
and its impossible
im not CHRIST to
play tolerable
i wanted for ur hand
jus to
place em on ma head
to feel good
u dont have an idea
for u
its jus anotha call to india
for me
im tired of this misery
LORD, im missin ma sneha
she cant be here
to give a comfortin hand
im all alone
and therez nothin i hate
than feelin cold
its cold
u would kno
if u did
stand
barefoot
in the snow
im cryin now
im cryin now....
cryin now...
somebody...
save me now
save me love...
ma love
i dont believe in u
no mo
not coz
u let pt go
im poor in strength
and too rich in emotions
so i cant let go
not this life
not ma hurt
nor ma lies
for the words
that describes im well

im well GOD
bac to square one
like u care for
aint blamin u
ba i have none else to
REAH
i miss u
ive sent every prayer i can
for life, i kno
can neva understand

now its rainin
so heavy that i cant open eyez
GOD, stop me cryin
i need to live life
u made me in between
and the space is still livin
ba not me...
ba not me...

© stapp
20 Apr 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mental Coup

why am i dyin to live
if im willin to die
why am i tryin to sacrifice
when im breakin inside
why am i tryin to write
if it hurts me to cry
wonda if i'll
eva laugh again...

mama didnt like me
nor did she care
coz she kept havin babies
and i was the eldest there
so i grew up in a hood
dirt
neva did kno the good
whata word
i saw women
ba slept with whores
read the bible
didnt last that long
many dreams that i had
many wishes that i have
im tryin to assume
one day ima make come true
tryin to diffuse
situations here
ma life's in danger
someone's tryin to kill me
wha if i die
before puttin it together

mama im sorry
this bullet's for u
wanted to bury u in a cemetery
ba guess this son's in a mental coup

wonda if i'll eva laugh again

memories
after i shot on her knees
as i push the gas
runnin from the scene
man, i could feel
tearz streamin down ma cheekz
not coz i shot thee
ba im missin a mommy
will some mafucka care for me
in the dark
many dreamz is wha i had
mama's ghost still roams the streets
ba i aint feelin bad
no matter how hard i'll survive
one day i'll die in the try
its like
two strikes a liquor
and 3rd, is ur death
so why is the wealth??
man fuc this life
fuc the wealth
fuc everythin i dreamt

now a mad man
wrapt around these 4 wallz
i dont understand
wha am i, inside these con-laws
im sick
and the judge mafucka
wont even lethal inject me
when many innocent lives
get wha i need
GOD, it aint fair
i shot ma mom
cant find a runaway dad
help me outta here
im in despair
no gun to zip a bullet thru
no roads that lead to u
im me..
im alone
a lil dope
and im flown

Cons come to befriend me
throw fists
like they dono me
so go down to the refactory
everyone's repectin me
im the size of a weed
cant even pick up a gal that i see
ba i play with guns
they all think its fun
well...try n hold one
then think of shootin
when it comes to ur mom
dont judge me insane
i knew wha i was doin
and i deserve somethin more than a jail
shoot me
shoot me...
i need not die
coz the GOD'S given me
the best punishment for life
i'll survive.

© stapp
20 Apr 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Say thingz u neva wanted to Say

would u forgive me
if i bury u in ma skin
coz these are thingz
i neva wana give in
take me out
the place u breath
coz i wana love
i wana hold

make me grow
take me alone
therez too much to say
itz why i don go sayin
i cant explain
guess GOD's lies
are too pure to complain
and when buried under the shadowz of ma eyez
it turns evil
coz i miss too much good
and i hold no wil
ba im strong
coz u, is i belong

i wana teach ppl
not jus good
ba to lie
cheat...
and still not be afraid of dyin
the difference, i wonda
between u and i
is the space between
filled with words
are thingz
i neva wanted to say
ba they will mean...
....something...
something...
im sure
for all life
i had pain
a few joy
and i will not complain
ba inside i do
if not ne mortal
immortal then

dont leave me layin here
take me newhere
i jus dont care
ba lay down beside
aint no soldier
yet wounded
need ur arms
hug me when i cry
for i can feel warm
drop tearz without fear
therez no mo for me
if u lead me away
letz not for once think practical
u and me
play a lil heart game
like we could go on...
no union of souls
no commitments
jus our world under GOD'S name
we'll then be soldiers
and be free once mo
this is wha we are fightin for.

© Stapp
14 May 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Nothin in this world

time is 6
its evenin
ma friend was standin
his eyez were fixed
couldnt stop the tearz to fall
we were the closest
ne friendz have been
and that i can recall

at a corner
with this gal
with every shiverin word
he gathered guttz
to feel her heart
and this was his world

ther was so much to dream
so much to life, to fill
ba nothin prepared me for this scene
all ma tearz were gone
with a thunder sound
till day i can recall
if is sayin thingz u feel, a crime
then why am i still alive
u couldve taken mine
or lend me urs to
ma friend
i wan him GOD
im incomplete with his end
cant still figure
why his beautiful gal
had taken the hammer
and slammed him down
to the ground
i wanted to choke her nec
till she breathes to beg
ther was much to much comostion in ma head
we had his bones to burn
his mother was nun
and a father he hadnt learnt
ba all their tearz wen dry
as fire went ablaze
didnt kno wher ma sound had gone
when i wanted to cry in rage

well, twas long ago
now,
his smiles wen grey
as the sun decented everyday
love was like a one day affair
therez so much to be learnt
and so much pains to pay

nothin in this world is clear
too many questions dono wher they are
we'll foreva loose our dear
blame it on fate for failure
they are....they are...

told ma father
i was payin a visit
said , she was drunk n defeated
to be fended
ba for me was endless
an answer i needed
therz no one to pray for
i cant have cure

like no leaves on trees
im told im free
GOD uve taken ma only wing
how do u expect
for me to take life
step by step
i aint no philothropist
nor nothin less with will comfort me
i have to runaway alone
tho i kno i'll stray...
no mo ma life i own
like 'life was a highway
and ma soul, is jus its car.'

© Stapp
16 May 2004

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mother Burn

Memories
after i shot mama on her knees
as i push the gas
runnin from the scene
man, i could feel
tearz streamin down ma cheeks
not coz i lost her
ba im missin a mother
will some mafucka care for me
ma words..
everyday
it hurts
so bad..
ba i hold em in ma breath
will so until ma death

in the dark
many dreams is wha i had
mama's ghost still roams the streets
ba i aint feelin scared
no matter how hard i'll survive
one day i'll to die
in the try
its like
tu strikes, a liquor
the 3rd, is ur death
so why is all this wealth
fuc life
fuc wealth
fuc everythin i dreamt

now a mad man
wrapd around these 4 wallz
after i shot dead
a mother and sista
i dont understand

look at Mtv
rascals remixin ol melodies
givin birth to pornography
its the cirtics that gets to write
books on models
and hype thier style
makin it a brand name
like every house will fight
think they're larger than life
well nobody knows
whaz beneath their fuckin clothes
ba ima expose
critics cut ur write
if law means
shootin mama was a crime?
well i bet it loves
young galz strippin jus to have a life

fuckin bitches who act
models who run the ramp
in the cover to earn
heads bow
ima have Mother burn
fuckin all thier mothers burn
not in hell
ba in here
coz hell's a betta place now
so let all y'all mother burn down.

© Stapp
31 May 2004